My bust collection is ever-growing.
Hello, friends! It’s been way too long, and I am well aware. Truth be told, this is a post I started writing over a month ago, but I decided to listen to my own advice and finish it up when I really had a moment. To those of you who have reached out, thank you. It’s nice to know I can fall off the face of the internet and not go completely unnoticed! It’s been a busy end of the school year/start to summer that I had planned to continue blogging through, but somewhere along the way I hit a wall. The quiet whispers I had been ignoring most of the spring “you’re doing too much” “just enjoy your family” “this is a different season for you, embrace it” turned into exhaustion and several proposals that were met with closed doors. You know that saying, “your biggest strengths are also your greatest weaknesses?” Well, perseverance is one of mine. Sometimes I push through to the point of ridiculousness, and God has to slam doors in my face for me to obey. This has unfortunately been one of those times. Stepping back has not been easy for me, but it’s what I needed to do.
I’m not saying goodbye to blogging, but this season of my life is different, and things can’t look the way they have in the past. I’ve always made it a goal to blog twice a week. For the past four years, that’s what has worked for me. Besides a handful of occasions I’ve stuck to that. But along the way I’ve gained another child, older kids in activities, a new church filled with opportunities to grow and minister, a bigger home to maintain with the blessing of hosting others in it, a healthier eating style that requires more time at the store and in the kitchen, and so much more laundry. Oh, the laundry. Life had gotten full to the point of bursting and I wasn’t doing any of it well. Something had to give, and the only thing that made sense because I’m sadly not getting a maid or a chef anytime soon was regular blogging. I need to give myself the grace to post when something is really worth sharing. I need to feel content in the silence on the blog, not in my house. I have no idea what silence is anymore when there isn’t.
I couldn’t pass up the painted lady or the peanut.
When you’re able to show yourself more grace, you’re able to extend that to others. I’ve had so much more patience with my kids and been allowed to truly enjoy them and all that is summer these last few months. Not only has the time off been good as a mom but good as a person. I’ve done things I haven’t done in years, silly things but things that feel decadent as a busy mom: I’ve painted my nails, watched TV without feeling guilty or anxious, read a book, spent time with my kids without looking at the clock. I spent May cooking wholesome, healthy meals for my family Micah and I did a Whole30 and six weeks at the beginning of summer doing some postpartum rehab and getting my health in order. Some of these I’ve written off as things I didn’t have time for since I started blogging, but they are activities that energize and delight me in this season.
This fall our older two will be in school full time how did that happen so fast? and maybe there will be more dedicated time for the blog, maybe there won’t. But I know God has called me to this change, and although my way always sounds better, His ways are perfect. Thank you for sticking with me through this season of grace. I’ll be back soon with a project or two, but in the meantime I’d love to hear how your summer is going. We had a magical time at Disney, a rejuvenating family camp experience, and have spent most of the day-to-day by the pool belting out Moana. What about you?